If there is one holiday I am systematically unenthusiastic about – its valentine’s day. “But BB, you have a boyfriend! why would you hate valentines day?!”. I’ve hated it since I was little, and I hate it now.

To start – I HATE the color red.

1. If you’re single – you are stuck listening, and thanks to social media, looking at how “wonderful” someones “baby” or “honey” was. NEWFLASH: if Valentines is  the only time you talk about how great your sweetie is  – he probably isn’t that great.

2. If you’re in a relationship – I don’t care what any girl says, its a competition. What your boyfriend does for you means nothing if it is not better than what your best friends boyfriend did for her. If you happen to be the lucky winner of this subconscious competition – great. If not – all of a sudden your sweet, wonderful boyfriend turns into a selfish, thoughtless jerk. I DO NOT ENVY MEN ON THIS HOLIDAY. 

3. If you are married – Valentines day is probably just another reason for you to get angry at your spouse for being forgetful. Let’s get real – if you are an actual adult (job, kids, bills, responsibilities) and you happen to remember Valentines day, or even bigger, manage to get a present for your spouse on valentines day – its a win in my book.

So, truthfully there is no good position to be in, on Valentines day. You deal with the stress and pressure of impressing your significant other (and many times, outshining their friends) for one singular day that will quickly be forgotten. Does anyone ever look back on life and say – wow remember that one really amazing valentines day?!

My boyfriend is a mediocre present giver to begin with – he is just uninspired by the idea of finding the perfect item for me, whereas I relish the challenge to think about what he likes at the point in time, narrow down something he would life, decide if its for pleasure or necessity and then make the purchase. He goes into the store – usually within 72 hours of the occasion, and thinks of any random thing I’ve mentioned (whether i want it or not) and grabs it. I made the terrible mistake of mentioning I enjoyed the children’s movie Cars – and for 5 years I received Cars-related gifts (when I said I liked the movie, I clearly should have said “I can tolerate this movie without wanting to rip out of my hair”). We have moved passed the Cars obsession, although his family will pepper in a few gag gifts at the holidays.

I have to admit – I have no idea what to get him for Valentines day, yet another reason I hate this holiday. There are about 4 widely accepted gifts for valentines day

1. Chocolate

2. Stuffed Animals – since he’s a MAN and not 6 1/2 years old, I think its obvious I should stay away from stuffed animals

3. Flowers – while my boyfriend really appreciates flowers, I think he’d be a little thrown off by me getting him flowers (plus the ones I got would probably be better than the ones he got me)

4. Sex stuff

So that leaves chocolate, and sex stuff – or a combo of the two. While I feel that chocolate is a pedestrian, easy-way-out kind of gift …. men don’t think that way. And it doesn’t matter what day it is – sex stuff always wins with my guy. The idea of a night that is shrouded in eroticism, with new “clothes” and  “toys” to play with … that’s the golden ticket.

I just want to make it through this stress-filled week with all my hair, and my sanity in tact. I’ll probably venture to Victoria Secret – where the only secret is how they can change $50 dollars for underwear that doesn’t cover anything…. and find something that will make me regret the fries I’m eating for lunch AND hate myself at the same time.

I’m sure there are 3,000 other reasons why I hate valentines day – but the one’s I’ve listed should get even the most romantic cupids to realize what a dumb holiday it is. Bah Lovebug!



So I’ve recently come across a bunch of different fan fiction, and while I feel it’s a dangerously addictive thing to get into – I’m super interested in using characters that I love, to do anything I want.

Can my lovely blogosphere suggest some good fan fiction, I watch almost everything so any show is welcome!

Wake Up In the Morning Feeling like …. shit.

Well WordPressers – ya almost lost me!


I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought – man I should really write a post today … but between being a lazy millennial and a busy pseudo-businesswoman… lets just say my free time consists of little other than Netflix, my couch and my cats.

Happy two weeks and two days into 2014!

So my goal for this year is not to lose 100 lbs, or a “new and improved” me… all I want is to feel healthy.

This is how my day goes now

1. wake up – ALWAYS tired

2. drink red bull (gratuitous amounts)

3. get ready (hair clothes makeup)

4. drive to work (drinking red bull, smoking cigarettes)

5. work – sit in front of computer, eating, drinking … MORE RED BULL, counting the minutes until i die (JUST KIDDING)

6. drive home from work (usually i don’t stop for another red bull, i think we’re up to about 4 at this point)

7. park myself on the couch

8. watch TOO much Vanderpump Rules and RHOBH

9. order in (typically pizza, Chinese or whatever will deliver to my fat ass)

10. watch more T.V

11. get serious FOMO at around 11 (fear of missing out)

12. finally go to sleep around 1:30



So, as any 2 year old could see – the reason I don’t feel healthy is because I don’t LIVE  a healthy life style. The one problem I have with the “getting healthy” kick is that there are probably 103231326143614361435 ways to do said task.

Do I diet ? If so – weight watchers? south beach? my own diet? just eat less? try to figure out what “counting calories” is?

Do I exercise? Obviously yes but how? – gym membership (expensive), running/walking (this girl has a rack on her, so running it basically like getting punched in the face 1000 times), yoga (anyone who does yoga makes me hate myself), or I could always break out the copy of Carmen Electra’s stripperobics that my old roommate so kindly left behind.

One thing that is blatantly obvious is that I HAVE to stop drinking red bull, even sitting here at my desk with an 8.4 oz can staring back at me … I know I shouldn’t drink it, but I’m going to anyway.  It has absolutely stopped having its intended effect on me, for example – I am drank one at around 11:20 last night and was able to go to sleep.

So here is the question I pose to the wordpress world – what makes you FEEL HEALTHY??

Late Night Snack Post

Hello Everyone!

Its sunday night, and for most of you American bloggers that means one thing …. WORK MONDAY MORNING. Now, this particular Monday won’t be so terrible for me because I have a plethora of new clothes from a shopping trip this weekend so I’ll be feeling fresh.


Even though I’ve been working the same job for only 3 months, I worry that I’m falling into what I like to call a JOB rut. So, I love the job I have right now… it is the PERFECT place for me to be at twenty something years old, but unfortunately it is not in my field of interest so that is exactly what it is to me, a job. I look forward to the weekends and days off….. Everything is turning into a routine, and being in college for 5 years was anything but routine ….. I just worry I’m going to wake up one morning, start drinking coffee, and look forward to the highlight of my day – good water cooler gossip. The ONE thing that I will say about this position is that I get out of work before it gets dark…. For some odd reason, the recent day-light savings time induced darkness that begins around 5 has really affected me. When it gets dark I lose ALL motivation to do anything, leaving my bed … much less my apartment is nothing but a dreadful chore I avoid at all costs. I get about 2 hours of sunlight after work to do what I need to … so I am lucky.  I’ve considered investing in one of those light box’s that supposedly help fight Seasonal Affect Disorder, but I haven’t don’t enough research into the validity of the theory behind it.


I’m sure everyone goes through phases like these, and if any of you would care to share solutions to get out of this rut… I’d LOVE to hear them.


Goodnight blogosphere, sweet dreams.

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

So …. by the title of this one might assume relationship troubles for this twentysomething, but true to my generation … I am talking about my iPhone. So here’s what happened: about a month ago, amidst a heated fight with my boyfriend, I dropped my precious device in the parking lot of a Walgreens. As I picked it up to continue to verbally thrash my completely incorrect boyfriend, my heart broke as I saw a spider web crack in the corner of the screen. To make matters worse, I got this phone less than 3 months ago. I sucked it up, but on my otterbox to avoid shards of glass in my cheek and I continued using it (there was no problem with the function of the phone).

Friday night, out of the blue, I lost cellular service and my phone just said “searching” where the new iOS dots appear. The lazy, internet sleuth that I am, looked up a series of steps that other people claim “worked for them”. None of these worked and left me with the new phone welcome screen, unable to reactivate my phone. I journeyed to the AT&T store in hopes that they might have a solution. The guy who helped me was the spitting image of Ronnie from “The Jersey Shore”, and he spent most of our conversation prep-dancing for what I imagine would be a smirnoff ice blurred evening for him. After giving me a serious of “you’re fucked” faces, he suggested I go to the Apple store, but be prepared to pay because of the crack. In an attempt to subvert the “accidental damage” fee (I’m using a lot of ” this post), I called Apple, spent about 2 1/2 hours doing the same steps I found on the internet, to no avail. Just as Ronnie’s facial gestures suggested, the apple associate basically told me you’re fucked.

Who does a girl call when no one else will help? Her daddy. After whine-explaining what happened, he came to the rescue! My iphone had insurance on it!! He knew that I am the clumsiest person on the planet- and got the insurance behind my back. Now I just have to wait 1-2 business days for my link to the world to arrive! Although its been about 24 hours I have noticed slight difference in my daywithout my phone.

1. My computer and house phone have not left my side. Because that is what my iphone is – a small, sleek clever computer and phone in one – now I’m stuck with two tedious, old fashioned pieces of technology (to overstate the brattiness that’s going on here – my mac has the new software which basically makes it a phone … I have the ability to text, go on the internet and do anything … especially play sims, and I’m still complaining. But hey – these are MY ramblings right?)

2. I HATE reading anything on my computer screen – if there are typos in my posts its because I can’t re-read what I’ve written … there’s something in my brain that blocks me from obtaining information from a computer screen. I could however enjoy anything on my iphone screen … therefore I had to buy a newspaper this morning. I really hope those things stay alive for a while, theres something comforting about reading the physical newspaper on a Sunday in bed – kids of the future will miss out on that.

3. Since my iphone wasn’t getting cell service – I couldn’t access maps to tell me how to get to the AT&T store! But with the help of my memory and some educated guesses – I found the store with little trouble. It scares me to think of having to go places without Siri telling me how to get there.

That’s all I can think of for now — but I’m sure I’ll be completely inconvenienced by my total lack of iphone in many more ways before the new phone arrives. I’m trying to take this as an opportunity to enjoy non-technological things, but its becoming clear there may be evidence of a slight addiction to technology on this end.

Have a wonderful Sunday WordPressers.

I almost gave up!

So WordPress, this blog almost became a member of my numerous other attempts to chronicle my life. >I blame my iPhone. When I finally overcame my fear of typing anything longer than a text on my phone – I downloaded the app, and my phone hid it on a mysterious second page of a folder. BUT I FOUND YOU

It’s way too late to attempt to convey any real information to you wonderful bloggers – so this is just a hey how are ya! until I dig out my lap top and lay some truth on you! YIKES! please note previous comment how late it is and excuse what I just said.

I love you fabulous people!

Locked up ….. in Literature.

Hey ladies and germs!

Thought you got rid of me?! NAHHHHHH. As usual, I took an extended break from the daunting task of telling you all about my life.

Hmmmmm – I GOT THE JOB AT THE LAW FIRM! I am “Director of Client Services” which makes me feel like a bad boss bitch. I love my boss – although its been 3 weeks since I’ve seen her and its been hard to … and don’t get mad that i’m complaining… hard to do nothing. I have to answer about 2 emails/phone calls ….. A DAY. I have a wonderful schedule so at least I’m not here 9-5, haha I’m here 10-3.

I’m not sure if I’m allowed to be blogging at work, but like i said – I have nothing else to do… plus shes not here …. plus I’ve stayed off of the completely anti-productive social media site (facebook, twitter)… I just don’t want to get in trouble and get fired.


If you haven’t noticed…. I’m a worrier. If there is a chance something will go wrong, something will happen etc ….. I worry about it. Its a large fault of mine, and ends up causing me some pretty serious anxiety. If you looked in my stomach, I’m sure there’s a the beginning of an ulcer forming down there. Some people may blame it on Catholic guilt – which is totally possible (what kind of “faith” makes you publicly shame yourself by confessing every single bad thing you’ve done). Anyway …. lets see – today alone i’ve felt bad for running out of cat food, cutting a guy off on the high way, coming into work 2 minutes late AND obviously – blogging.

Since we last spoke I went on a serious prison education binge. Well “education” should be put loosely. By that I mean I’ve read about 5 books and watched all of the episodes of Lock Down that are on Netflix…. first class, ivy league education right there haha. Some of the titles I read were

 Going Up the River “Travels in a Prison Nation” by Joseph T. Hallinan

 – This book was VERY good. It was an in-depth look at America’s prison system from an economic and industrial viewpoint. It discusses the trend of building prisons for jobs, not to house criminals. Not many people view prisons as anything but a can to put society’s “trash” or “unmentionables” but in fact prisons serve a much greater purpose – to provide jobs in rural areas to those people who need work. Just take a gander at the environment prisons are built in … do you see them in the middle of populated, business-rich cities? NOPE. You see them in rural, jobless, resource-less areas that allow for this thrown away society. Anyway – if you are interested in the economics behind prisons – this is a MUST READ.

Newjack, Guarding Sing Sing. By Ted Conover.

This book was much different. I find participant observation fascinating, and that is exactly what Ted has done. Apparently he was denied access to Sing Sing as a journalist so he made the sociological decision to forgo his comfortable, limited-stress life for the life of a prison guard (which is anything but comfortable, or low stress). He put his life in danger to obtain information the public might else never know. Although it wasn’t as “gritty” or “juicy” as I expected – it told a good story of the kinds of troubles, dangers and social issues a prison guard faces. Theres one quote that really stuck with me (its not a direct quote, so i’ll probably botch it) but it went along the lines of “Prisoners and guards are both serving life sentences, guards just do theirs in 8 hour shifts.”

Fish By T.J Parsell

If you are looking for a tv show type drama of a book … this is it. The unfortunate thing is that for T.J, the scene didn’t end when someone called cut. TJ or “fish” as he was so fondly referred to as, held up a photo store. As a result he was sentenced to time in an adult prison. This book provides a look into the life of someone who is in prison, and doesn’t belong there. He was young, immature, naive ….. all of the things a KID is supposed to be. In this book he vividly recounts multiple rapes, and assaults as well as the inner workings of a prison society. I found T.J incredibly BRAVE to write this book, to come out to the world and tell them what happened to him, whats happening to the people we as a society lock up and throw away the key. I truly hope he has found peace and love in his life, and I apologize on behalf of our society and  the prison system for purporting these acts on a seventeen year old kid.

I can’t remember the other titles (unfortunately Barnes and Noble has an incredibly small criminology section). I have another book – a book of prisoners creative writing waiting for me … but I took a break and am reading a sci-fi book now.


I cant even get into my love life right now. It’s too complicated and if I talk about it I might cry, and I’m at work so thats not good.